Tyrone Merrill
My dark secrets...
Allen and Patrice base color Illustration
Ok, I decided to give you all a sneak peak of some of the projects I have been working on. Here is a pic of Allen and Patrice sharing an intimate moment in front of a Sanguine Moon lol. I love this drawing!! This is not the complete version, only a base color. Im not really sure about the color of the room tho, I feel like its to similar to the outside. Things will deff change when I start adding detail colors so im not all that worried about it. The finished project shall be uploaded upon its completion. I feel like how I paint this picture is really going to make or break how sweet it is!! If I get it right It could really be amazing. What I am going for is having the moon coming from outside be the main source of light, so Allen, Patrice and the room itself will be bathed in light of a redish tint. nnniiiiicceeeee lol, hopefully I can get it right! Wish me luck!! And if you have any tips they would be greatly welcomed!! leave in the comment box please :)
THE QUESTION OF YOU THREE PAGE PREVIEW!!
I decided to give you all a smaaalll sneak preview of The Question Of You. Its only the first three pages, not even enough to really grasp the story, but thats ok, because I don't wanna spoil it lol. AAHHHHHH, NOW THAT I SEE THESE PAGES IM SOOO EXCITED ABOUT FINISHING CHAPTER ONE!! ENJOY!
FIRTS WEEKLY READING FINALLY POSTED! Beautiful Black Woman with a heart full of hate.
Ok, I wanted to take a minute and explain my reasonings behind this weeks posting. I guess first I'll start by saying that this poem is not in any way shape or form meant to bash or degrade black women! Or any women for that matter. This poem is also not about any specific person, I am addressing MY experiences with black women as a whole. Its simply a product of my feelings towards the many adventures I have had dating. The truth of the matter is that lately I have noticed that on the whole, black men and women don't know how to treat each other. We speak to each other in horrible ways, do and say terrible things to each other, and for what? It is true that some times people deserve to be treated poorly, but not everyone you meet deserves your hatred. Its true that many of the people you meet in life are untrustworthy, but that should make the genuine people in your life all the more special. We need to open our selves up to being able to tell the difference. Don't treat people who genuinely care for you like shit because someone from your past screwed you over. When it comes to love nothing is certain, and that is most definitely a scary thing, but what BOTH men and women need to realize is that getting your heart broken is just a part of life. Much like getting your teeth pulled, heart ache, being lied to and hurt, is just something that everyone is going to have to go through. We need to learn to put that into perspective. Your next relationship should not suffer because of events that took place during your last! Leave the past in the past, learn from your mistakes AND JUST LET GO! If we can learn to do this, we would all be allot happier in the end. I know its easier said than done, but unless you can let go of the hatred and resentment in your heart, the only thing you will succeed in doing is causing someone else the same pain your past relationships caused you. This seemingly endless cycle of hatred and resentment really needs to stop!
God Created Woman
Ok, so lately I have been listening to allot of Prince. Well, those of you who know me know that I am constantly listening to Prince music lol. Lately I have been really jamming to this song called "And God Created Woman". Its and amazing song (like most of his songs are lol) and is in my opinion based loosely on the story of Adam and Eve. The other day at work I was listening to the song in my head (cause I have listened to it so many times in my life that I can do that lol, listen to it without it actually having it playing ha ha ha) and it got me to thinking about the similarities between the age old tale of Adam and Eve, and modern day Human relationships. Well, to be completely honest I can only speak on my own personal experiences, so I was thinking about the ways in which the song (more so than the biblical tale) is similar to my own past relationships. For those who don't know the tail, LOOK IT UP! LOL. I don't feel like explaining it to you. Here are the lyrics to the Prince song.
In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman
Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)
Woman
My-my-my-my-my-my woman
In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)
And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman
Im sure that anyone who knows the tale can see the similarities. Where I come in is that this song brings to mind the evolution of a relationship I had, and it was interesting how similar it was to the story of Adam and Eve. My thought process goes as follows:
In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman
This part of the song brings to mind love in its youth. Being someone who fell in love at a young age, this part makes me think of how as children, the love was innocent, it was platonic, it was pure. Much like adam and eve when they first existed in the garden.
Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)
This part of the song gets me to thinking about how as we got older, we became more aware of our surroundings (much like adam and eve when they tasted the fruit) our way of thinking became more adult, and in turn less pure. We became aware of sexual desires, and set out into the world as adults to have and form relationships. Well each relationship we have leaves its mark on us, so along with these relationships making us more aware of how "love" "life" and "relationships" work, they also make us insecure, or more aware of our insecurities (much like adam and eve when they realized they were naked). And it is because of this awareness, because of our insecurities we deemed each others love unworthy, and cast it out of our hearts (or our garden).
In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)
This part of the song brings to mind the cause of our "Degradation" if you will. The lesser relationships (snakes) we had that opened our eyes to pain, hurt and betrayal, that made us insecure. And that even tho after our love has degraded, and we continue to have relationships, continue to be hurt, lied to, and mistreated by those we are in these relationships with in the hopes of again finding what we lost " given half the chance still i'd run to your side, love of my love" Self explanatory lol.
And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman
The truth of the matter is that we can never get back what we lost. And if I never see you again its alright, for I am guilty of no sin because I honestly tried and gave it everything I had. and even tho it pains me to think of you with another, they can have you, I'll have your love in the end, because I will always have the memories of the love, and the purity we once shared. They stay with me, as part of who I am, Part of my soul, helping to shape me into a better person. Soul of my soul.
NOW, I want to make a project based on this song and my personal interpretation of its meaning. When you listen to it, you may not see what I see, which is fine. I realize that I have almost created my own personal narrative based on Prince's lyrics. And who knows, Maybe thats what I should do, just write and draw my own narrative based on the song. Only problem is I want the song to be part of the project in some way. I guess I could just do drawings and make something of a slide show or animation with the song playing in the background, but I'm honestly kinna leaning against that idea. I DUNNO, These are just thoughts I have been having as of late lol. Here is a link to the song by the way. in case you wanted to listen. Its on youtube, which really surprises me because Prince music is usually VERRY difficult to find online! Especially stuff like this thats not really his mainstream stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jE-Pbxoevpo
What are your thoughts on my thoughts? lol. When you listen to the song, how does it make you feel? Whats your interpretation? I WANNA KNOW! COMMENT! LOL ;) P.S. PRICNE IS THE GREATEST MUSICIAN OF ALL TIME!!!!!! YESSIR!
In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman
Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)
Woman
My-my-my-my-my-my woman
In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)
And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman
Im sure that anyone who knows the tale can see the similarities. Where I come in is that this song brings to mind the evolution of a relationship I had, and it was interesting how similar it was to the story of Adam and Eve. My thought process goes as follows:
In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman
This part of the song brings to mind love in its youth. Being someone who fell in love at a young age, this part makes me think of how as children, the love was innocent, it was platonic, it was pure. Much like adam and eve when they first existed in the garden.
Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)
This part of the song gets me to thinking about how as we got older, we became more aware of our surroundings (much like adam and eve when they tasted the fruit) our way of thinking became more adult, and in turn less pure. We became aware of sexual desires, and set out into the world as adults to have and form relationships. Well each relationship we have leaves its mark on us, so along with these relationships making us more aware of how "love" "life" and "relationships" work, they also make us insecure, or more aware of our insecurities (much like adam and eve when they realized they were naked). And it is because of this awareness, because of our insecurities we deemed each others love unworthy, and cast it out of our hearts (or our garden).
In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)
This part of the song brings to mind the cause of our "Degradation" if you will. The lesser relationships (snakes) we had that opened our eyes to pain, hurt and betrayal, that made us insecure. And that even tho after our love has degraded, and we continue to have relationships, continue to be hurt, lied to, and mistreated by those we are in these relationships with in the hopes of again finding what we lost " given half the chance still i'd run to your side, love of my love" Self explanatory lol.
And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman
The truth of the matter is that we can never get back what we lost. And if I never see you again its alright, for I am guilty of no sin because I honestly tried and gave it everything I had. and even tho it pains me to think of you with another, they can have you, I'll have your love in the end, because I will always have the memories of the love, and the purity we once shared. They stay with me, as part of who I am, Part of my soul, helping to shape me into a better person. Soul of my soul.
NOW, I want to make a project based on this song and my personal interpretation of its meaning. When you listen to it, you may not see what I see, which is fine. I realize that I have almost created my own personal narrative based on Prince's lyrics. And who knows, Maybe thats what I should do, just write and draw my own narrative based on the song. Only problem is I want the song to be part of the project in some way. I guess I could just do drawings and make something of a slide show or animation with the song playing in the background, but I'm honestly kinna leaning against that idea. I DUNNO, These are just thoughts I have been having as of late lol. Here is a link to the song by the way. in case you wanted to listen. Its on youtube, which really surprises me because Prince music is usually VERRY difficult to find online! Especially stuff like this thats not really his mainstream stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jE-Pbxoevpo
What are your thoughts on my thoughts? lol. When you listen to the song, how does it make you feel? Whats your interpretation? I WANNA KNOW! COMMENT! LOL ;) P.S. PRICNE IS THE GREATEST MUSICIAN OF ALL TIME!!!!!! YESSIR!
FIRST ENTRY!!
After much deliberation I have decided to go back to using my old logo to represent what I do. Yeeeep, i have returned to being good ol Merrill ha ha ha ha. This symbol means allot to me, and I have been through allot with it! I created it back in High School and began using it as a symbol that represented not only every thing I did, but everything I was (in a sense lol). However, due to issues I'm not really at liberty to discuss I abandoned my symbol and set my mind on designing another. Well, I have recently been liberated from the shackles that once made me a slave, and am ready to take the man I use to be and change into the man I wish to become (if that makes any sense lol)
